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today is the last day of the school holidays and i feel sad because the holidays should be longer. holidays seemed longer in australia and in here, the moment you blink, it ends. back to reality. back to school. back to hell. back to being surrounded by annoying people who will drain the goodness out of you. okay, that sounds a little extreme and cruel. but its true, i prefer my friends at church than my friends at school. school friends usually use you, for example, people asking for answers and homework. youre never gonna get anything good from them. some of my smart friends who has given answers to the stupid people regret everything, like this one time for a biology mid exam, my smart friend got 96 and the stupid friend who asked for answers got 98. unfair isnt it? he couldve at least got a 20 if it wasnt for my smart friend. there you go kids, dont give answers or your homework, theyre not gonna pay it back with an equal score for you. what do they have to offer? theyre stupid, youre never going to get better grades in return. again, back to reality. a reality of fake, hopeless, dumb, backstabbing, playboy/girly people. disgusting. school is disgusting. heavy text books, losing your pen several times, forgetting to do or bring an assignment or project or homework, teachers who dont even know what theyre talking about and a ridiculous curriculum.

'dream big they say, shoot for the stars. then they lock us away for 12 years and tell us where to sit, when to pee, and what to think'.

why cant be learn about greek mythology, or the trojan war, or american presidential history, or world war 2. oh right, i know i live in a south east asian country called indonesia where education is one of the worst, looking at the rankings but indonesian kids feel so pressured. i mean, look at me, i feel pressured under indonesian education whereas in australia, a country with excellent education, i feel no pressure what so ever. weird right? extremely. anyway i have no idea why im writing this but this is how i feel.

okay bye for now ;)

im back and im not dead

hello people. yes, i am not dead. Its been MONTHS since I last posted but whatever, i miss australia, when I wasnt so tired and busy. Many things happened while I was gone. DA GURLZ split up, I turned 14, I became more active at church, bla bla bla. Oh, DA GURLZ split up? What happened? Simple. Apparently one of them are stupid and well, I was the one who quit DA GURLZ first for a better reason and she was mad blablabla and shes a massive lazy jerk who asks people for html codes THAT TOOK ME 5 HOURS TO TYPE now so youre welcome :) (ps if you ever want to copy and paste my html coding for the school project, you better pay me depending on how many hours it took me to type, 1 hour is 20K by the way :D)
I also turned 14. Yup. Im getting more mature i think... I got a trumpet for my birthday. Yup, a trumpet. I'm starting to learn it and im having lessons. Not many girls are interested in playing the trumpet. You know, the usual typical teenangers who follows every trend as if its not gonna die. Every trend will die girls, every single trend.
Oh and also, I'm getting more active at church. Im extremely lucky to be a part of this church community, everyone is nice and supportive (well, mostly, before I began to develop a cringey illness with a few people). Recently, I officially became the Coordinator of the Fellowship Ministry. I think thats pretty cool. Not many people signed up to be a part of the Fellowship team which is weird because the teens fellowship is cool to be honest... The typical mainstream people like my friends chose the Junior Service though, hmm. But anyway, I'm glad I got accepted in my first (and only) choice.
Ive also been playing with my band at church... well, only twice. My band is called BANDIT. We may be younger than the rest of the teens and youth with bands but were okay with that, were pretty cool in my opinion hahaha. Apart from that, Ive been designing the LCD powerpoints for the Junior Service, Ive also been singing at the Junior and Teens Service, playing the violin with my team at the Adult Service, and also with my Vocal Group.

Okay i think thats it for now, bye folks :)